The Vet At a gas station it is the smell of diesel fuel, at a construction site it is wet clay that brings him back to Vietnam, when driving he keeps a nervous eye at any tree line along the road. For years he dreads the 4th of July. Walking in the woods he is wary of pongee sticks and snipers. When they tell him he goes upstairs and shaves his head. He’d done a tour in the Mekong, been exposed to Agent Orange. He believes in rebirth not God, between chemo sessions he lights a joss stick, tosses the I Ching, listens to the Rolling Stones. Seven months later he dies. Dad’s Last Days The Pope today is too ill to say Merry Christmas in so many languages, Jimmy Stewart raises a weary arm to cameramen on his return to the hospital, I call Dad to wish him happy birthday, Amelia says he still won’t wear a hat in the cold. On his deathbed he tells me to take good care of my wife, in the end it’s the only thing a man has, but what son can understand his father’s last words, who were close too short, apart too long? The final time I see my father, half-naked, dressing gown askew, half-conscious from medications easing him out of life, I say, “Goodbye, Dad” and touch his bare big toe as I leave.
William Heath has published three poetry books: The Walking Man, Steel Valley Elegy, and Going Places; a chapbook, Night Moves in Ohio; three novels: The Children Bob Moses Led (winner of the Hackney Award), Devil Dancer, and Blacksnake’s Path; a work of history, William Wells and the Struggle for the Old Northwest (winner of two Spur Awards and the Oliver Hazard Perry Award); and a collection of interviews, Conversations with Robert Stone. He lives in Annapolis. www.williamheathbooks.com